Preparing the mask

 My name is Laura the Explorer and I am an overthinker. If Overthinkers Anonymous existed, I would be signing up in no time!

My autism means I think about things... A lot. This can sometimes be beneficial, if channeled correctly. I can write lists and daily plans meaning I don't forget the small stuff.

However, it can also overwhelm me. That has happened today. I have written my daily lists and my packing lists. However, I have become stuck as there is too much to do. Too much to organise, too much to pack and too much to think about. My brain has shut down and my body feels numb.

In my first blog, I said I would share my experience as an autistic person. Today, I feel awful. This is the reality of being autistic and dealing with a lot of changes in a short period.

I will rest, I will regulate and I will recover. 

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